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I don't even know why I do it. Why do I write these pieces? Why do I work on a social media site I created that no one visits? Why do I make music that no one in their right mind wants to hear?

No one is listening. I'm feedback in the microphone at a 3AM 80s hardcore show. My hate can't be measured in human words.

The words “I don't know” raise the dead within my mind. All it does is cause me pain, but isn't that what the Buddha said it was all about?

The things I push out into the world are met with silence, apathy. Even if the response would have been rage, my confidence wouldn't be this evaporated.

To be or not to be, that is the question. It's a question I ask myself everyday. What's the point of going on when you're not going to make a dent in the world's delusions and idiocracies?

I'm no better than anyone else, just another person who thinks he can see the truth when he clearly can't. If he could, he should have given up.

I'm a fool. That's all I've ever been. That's why no one cares. I'm a filler track on the album of life.

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